August 11. It was the last time I blogged. Its 4 am my time and I sit here unable to sleep trying to figure out how to compose the blog post. How to capture the last year in a few paragraphs. Its too difficult. As everyone else out there, it has been a difficult year. The economy hit small business very hard. But, we muddled through. No, time for cross stitching. No energy for any crafts, or any posts. Up and downs. Disappointments. But, we are no different then anyone else today. My story is no different.

My son is off to college, my daughter is married. I went back to work out of necessity. Life goes on.

My two little joys, my little Maxie boy. And my little Emmy girl, whos picture you can see a few posts back. As any dog lover, or animal lover can tell you...they are the little faces I look forward to seeing when I come home from work every afternoon. Their little faces make my day and makes the last years struggles worthwhile.

And this is where the desperation comes in. I just need to write this down. My little Maxie boy, my little shadow is so very sick. Its such a long story of in and out of the vets office, and emergency room.

He has what appears to be pancreatitis. Its a really bad case. We thought it would be simple. He would stay off of food for a while, then a bland diet, then slowly transition back to  possibly a lowfat diet for a while. It seemed to be working, then a horrible relapse. Two days total on IV fluids in the Emergency Room Vet, where it appeared he was eating, back home, yesterday another relapse. Back to the Emergency Room Vet. Tests are being asked to be taken to rule out other things.But, what is really needed is a full week at the ER.

How do you decide when enough is enough. That is the question I asked of the vet? We have been going to this vet for 10 years and trust her implicitly. She says not yet. I say, "I know, not yet". But, 5 days in the ER.is like a lifetime, and we are near the end of what we can financially handle.

And that's where the desperation comes in. The return to my blog. To tell the story of what my little baby boy is going through and put myself out there, and exhaust every means to try and get him one more day in the ER to recover.  This is not like me at all, but if you are a dog lover, a animal lover  or just a nice person who has enjoyed my blog and would like to contribute a dollar or two to his care, I would really, really appreciate it.

My paypay address is: sewgaby@aol.com. I think that is all you need. I'm not sure, I've never done this before.

I will be updating throughout the week.

Thank you all so, so much, just for reading through this.